Unsettled

Sometimes in life I feel like the foam on a wave,

tossed back and forth on the shore,

When hormones hit I swing wildly

between energy, depression, elation, lethargy ...

and a tension that makes me want to jump up and down, fast.

(But I don't,because I'm too old for that sort of thing)

Every little decision makes me unsettled, and nervous.

At some times I feel like everything in the world is too sad to bear,

and panic sets in, to keep my sadness company.

But at the same time I tell myself that in a few hours,

or after a good night's sleep,

I'll feel quite differently.

This weekend I'm floating about on the waves,

... sometimes in control, on the crest,

and sometimes floundering in the shallows.

Torrential rain at times today has reminded me too

that we are powerless against nature, inside and out.

(photos not taken today, obviously)

There's only one thing that can ground me, and that's God's word.

Deep calls to deep
in the roar of your waterfalls;
all your waves and breakers
have swept over me.

By day the LORD directs his love,
at night his song is with me—
a prayer to the God of my life.

- Psalm 42:7-8

Why, my soul, are you downcast?
Why so disturbed within me?
Put your hope in God,
for I will yet praise him,
my Savior and my God.

- Psalm 42:11

Psalm 42 reminds me to hold on, to remember God, who does not change.

To look up and praise Him,

whose "song is with me" each night

no matter where I am on the wave.